[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

I made the mistake of honestly answering the question “what’s wrong?” instead of just saying “nothing” as usual.

@pixel  
Thats not a mistake, that is being honest.
 
Lets talk about it.

@pixel  
Then what happened?

I don’t feel very good…
 
I feel dizzy and have a minor headache… this tiredness thing is getting worse and worse…
 
It’s been going on for a while now but especially since it has prevented me from enjoying my workouts a couple weeks ago it has really messed me up…

The doctor said I could go off of one of my medicines soooooo… hopefully that’ll help

@Rainboom Dash  
I hope so.

heading to bed, goodnight.

@warc9  
Night :)
 
Well, I guess I should try to work out for 30 minutes… I should try to do 30 minutes every day until I feel better…
 
Nighttime is the time I feel the most awake so…. it’s 10:50 P.M. right now so… I should work out before it gets too late/I get tired

@Background Pony #2EB3  
Heh, haven’t thought about it this way.
 
@pixel  
What’s the English equivalent of answering that everything is normal to “how are you”?

@Background Pony #38E0  
the way I do it is give a little smile and say “I’m great” and it usually weirds the asker out if I had a scowl on my face beforehand
 
it’s also slightly rude not to ask the question back so it comes off as cold and uninviting, shows that you’re just using a filler answer and don’t care to conversate

I’m crying again… I was thinking how amazing even that 20 minute workout felt and then I started feeling sad that I’m too tired to go longer
 
I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, REALLY miss my workouts :’(

@hype  
Yeah, but that’s a bit conspicuous, isn’t it? “Fine” is the one I’ve encountered the most, but I’m not sure if it is the most neutral answer.  
Knew about the second part, surprisingly.

@Rainboom Dash  
It’s not the same, but have you tried long walks? That’s the recommendation people who want to get into better shape but shouldn’t risk running (due to age or problems with joints) get.

@Background Pony #38E0  
fine is equivalent to okay, so it is probably the most neutral word along with alright
 
@Rainboom Dash  
why don’t you just power through it? the worst that can happen is vomit, and it won’t even be that much if you stop it

@hype  
But… it’s mental energy… not physical
 
I COULD work out longer… but it just doesn’t really feel good because I’m so tired
 
 
I want to go 3-4 hours but… looks like I’ll have to wait

@Background Pony #38E0  
It’s not the same… really…
 
It doesn’t feel nearly as relaxing

@pixel  
What happened?

@hype  
Interesting. As far as I know “fine” when applied to other things means above average, while “okay” is always merely acceptable.
 
 
@Rainboom Dash  
As long as my legs are aching a bit by the end of it I always end up tired overall as well once I get home. But that’s at least 7-10 kilometres in one go and I tend to slip into a rather quick pace. Really builds the calves if you’re not careful though.

There goes all the motivation i have left. Heard just now that my mother has cancer.

@Rainboom Dash  
my mind is always gunning it 24/7, not sure what you mean by mental fatigue
 
@Background Pony #38E0  
fine meant in a casual sense equates to merely acceptable, while in a more formal sense would mean above average. typical degradation of a language, I’m sure you understand

@LeoNero  
you don’t need your mother to go on man, even if she doesn’t make it

@hype  
And i don’t need you telling me on how i should fell.

@LeoNero  
no, but you’re kidding yourself if you think an alternate perspective won’t help with complex emotions

@hype  

 
Very helpful, thank you.
 

 
Too well. Bilingual nations have it even worse.
 
 
@LeoNero  
But that’s treatable in this day and age, right?..

@LeoNero  
I am sorry to here that. I can’t imagine what you are going thru right now.
 
If you need anything, talk to me.