Well my school is having a singing contest soon. My crush and one of my friends (whom I’m trying to get closer with) are planning to participate together. I had considered kindly asking them if they minded me joining their group. I’ll admit, I was really jealous when I heard about them participating together so I wanted to join them too. After a bit of thinking I thought I might be interrupting them and they might just want to join as a duo. If I asked, they might not have the heart to reject me but they may not want me joining them so I didn’t ask in the end. Now I’m thinking of my decisions today again, and thought I might have missed a chance of gaining friends. People say chances don’t come to you and you have to find them, and today I’ve missed yet another chance. I’m such a failure. I’m so sad right now I really wanna cry but I can’t. I want to tell someone but it might feel too awkward. My timidness is constantly getting the best of me and I’m so frustrated. I want to scream right now. I’m so tired of bottling up my feelings…
((why is this “little vent” so long and why is such a minor thing making me so sad. I don’t like my life.)