People, like yourself, who use this site to self harm, by anonymously posting angry or hateful comments at yourself, or upload images attacking yourself personally and viscously … you can be particularly difficult to respond to without hurting you or exposing your own problems for others to see.
But, since you are so repeatedly outing yourself, both here and on other images, I’ll just say that as long as you are only hurting yourself, not others, then that is your business. It sucks enormously that you are using this site to self-harm, because we have to deal with all the drama that you surround yourself with.
But as long as we can prevent you from hurting OTHERS, you’re just another one of dozens of people on the site, many of them artists like yourself, who periodically “cut themselves” with anonymous attack art, or anonymous hate posts (or hate PMs) attacking themselves.
The problem is when you hurt others, or make other artists think that those kinds of hate-filled statements are ok, or encourage others to post hate-filled comments too.
You are, effectively, giving others who see your posts the idea that bullying is ok.
And, when you leave as a result, you embolden bullies to think that the kind of self-bullying you have been doing is both permitted, and successful.
Since self-attacking seems to be a rule #0 violation,
When you attack yourself anonymously, no one else knows that it is you self-harming,
like here.
If we do not delete your posts for “personally attacking another user of the site”, then others live in an environment where it looks like it is ok for people to viciously and repeatedly attack each other.
By publicly and anonymously hating yourself, you create a space where hate grows. You encourage others to share their hate, too. And you make others think that “some hate” is ok.
When any of your friends or followers see those anonymous attacks and we either don’t delete them, or see that we delete them for the lesser rule about abuse of site features, then it can very reasonably look to others like hating you is ok. Or that we tacitly permit it in your case.
So that is why “self-attacking” is also Rule #0.
I really should be banned from here.
Being banned won’t fix you.
If you don’t want to use this site any more, leave. Don’t make us responsible for your future, or pretend that you are anything other than another amazing artist in a sea of people who make this community great and fun, who has some personal issues.
Yes, you keep breaking the rules, but it’s obviously because you need professional help for your emotional or psychological problems.
So get professional help. This is not a clinic. We can’t help you with that.
But keep drawing. As a fanart site that we definitely can help with. And you are among your peers, including some other artists and fans who, like yourself, suffer from emotional or psychological issues. I’m definitely not intending to sell the site as some sort of group therapy, or trying to suggest that the problems you have are common. But you are surrounded by thousands of fan artists, from all over the world. Maybe reach out to others about what you’re going through. The probably won’t be able to help you get better, but it might help knowing you aren’t alone.
So get professional help. And if you want to work out your issues through your art, that will be wonderful.
And if you need to self-harm, please find a way to do it that doesn’t involve this site or our volunteers spending hours cleaning up your extravagant and overly dramatic messes. It can be exhausting for us, and it honestly don’t look like it’s working for you.
There simply have to be more effective coping mechanisms than trying to create drama on a fan run My Little Pony fansite.
