you suffer from anxiety I understand what you go throw had you seek medical attention to get medical treatment for anxiety disorders I would advise you to seek help and ask to speak to a medical physician and a psychologist to get the right medication treatment for the anxiety and anxiety therapy to find the source of why you are suffering from anxiety what the source cause for your anxiety better to seak help then not and feel better and be able to enjoy life widout dealing with anxiety and make every day more difficult then it should be happy and live a life and enjoy life is worth to be happy and enjoyable life is never life on a stick and a bed of roses and rainbow and sunshine but always see life in a positive way and take life with pride you had been given a life to live fully