I wish to have remained unborn.
A princess I will never be
They will never chant my name.
Sub specie aeternitatis [in the perspective of eternity]
I can’t see myself at all.
Yet even as I nonexist
Timor mortis conturbat me. [the fear of death disturbs me]
…I wish I knew what can make you feel a little bit better
…I wish you could find a spirit in yourself to make yourself feel better
:(
you sound right now like a potentially lost friend, the pain of realizing this is physical.
You yourself consist of physical matter, a matter, which if used in a way that would not be yoursef could change a world in a certain way for good or bad. You have a unique power over that local matter to follow your will to stop bad from happening or to make a way for the good to happen. I’m so very grateful that this matter is yourself and not something else. Meh, that sounds like crazytalk. I guess that’s how people locally remember you.
The sweet @The Luna Fan here cares about you2
Regarding your wish to be remembered , I guess that we all want to leave our mark in the world for better of for worse, but I think that you can leave your mark in the world without archiving world changing discoveries, just by trying to do some good in the world is enough to make a difference….