Hello everyone. I write posts here quite rarely, and even more so with a request for help.

There have been too many changes in my life lately and they are literally like a swing: just when everything started to get better, and bam! Face the dirt again.

What’s happening?
My bf and I have finally saved up for the kitchen (in 3 years). And we took an installment plan for it. There is enough of everything in ok, everything is calculated perfectly, but in any case we have to work harder so as not to sit out the budget.
It was worth breathing a sigh of relief, as the next day my parents said that they had taken out a very large loan, and it was better not to rely on them for help with the mortgage. Now everything will be different.
We took out a mortgage at a time when I had n active and very solvent audience that I could rely on. As soon s I opened comm slot, it was immediately redeemed on spot. Patreon was bursting at the seams from rewards. I lived literally in chocolate, accumulating a lot of money.

However..
Because of the 2022’s global bullshit, my entire audience seemed to evaporate. There are 6 people left on patreon and my earnings from there have decreased five times.
It’s even worse with comms - my duplicate posts about opening didn’t gain slightest coverage. In 2022 I haven’t had a comms for months. But there is still no money, only parents can pay mortgage. And so they tell me that now it’s time for me to grow up and work 3 times more.

It is especially painful to hear the phrase from cool artists “you draw so fucking well, where is your audience??” - I just shrug my shoulders in response.

So what exactly is the problem?
The thing is.. in everything. In the set of the audience, in the comms, in the money in general. I hate to show myself so weak and helpless, but I have no choice but to throw a cry. Maybe at least u’ll hear me.
Therefore, if you like my art (exactly what you like, and not out of pity), then I’ll ask for a reblog. I’m completely desperate and I don’t know how to fix it otherwise.
I’m open to comms, trades, collaborations, collab-YCHs. Anything.
Help me get out of this hole.. please