[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

Shit, my entire life is flashing by. Those few years in paradise so much happened before I moved to Texas.

Shit, back in Ybor there was Hookah lounges where if you ask for happy smoke, the shit is laced with euphorants.

Ugh… I shouldn’t have eaten the whole wrap at once… now I have a stomachache
 
It was just 600 calories so I thought if I ate 3/4 of it now and 1/4 of it in 45 minutes I’d be okay…. whelp… just ate the extra quarter and now… meh…

Can anyone please cheer me up for a bit? I don’t feel like myself anymore. I thought Netflix’s expiration date on MLP was gone and I thought the show is going to stay on Netflix for good this time. But now, the expiration date is back again. I am so worried and anxious that they are getting rid of MLP on Netflix. Seriously, not cool. I want the 8th Season to arrive on Netflix. Because I want to watch season 8 over and over again, so I won’t have to wait too much longer for both season 9 and the DVD of the 8th season to arrive. I really hate Netflix already. 😢

@Shylover  

 
Hush now Shylover there are other ways to watch them

@TheDreaded  
I wish. But……..Netflix won’t have Season 8. *hugs while feeling anxious and sad*

@Shylover  
Yayponies

It’s irritating days like this that I want to do something completely regretful like being a runaway from this country or smoke or drink. Feels like I’m already dead not doing thise things….. A life of a loner.

@Flutter_Lover  
Buddy, I’m sorry that you feel like this. But I hate to see you feeling like this all the time. And it’s not fair for me to see a nice person like you to be treated this way. You don’t deserve to be treated this way. You’re a good person, and you’re the greatest friend I have ever had.
 
Here’s a GIF image of Fluttershy to hopefully cheer you up for a bit.  

I actually wanna just die right now. I’ve had it and it’s always haunting me, and i’m just through.

Meh

Every day I swim against the stream. I am well aware that this is actually insane. It always takes me a little bit closer to the edge of madness. Strangely enough, I’m laughing.

@DarkObsidian
 
That was beautiful.

I’m down to 123-124 lbs (56kg) and dropping…. it’s not THAT painful for me to eat… I’m just…. rejecting reality…
 
And I can’t just let myself get severely underweight and lose a bunch of muscle… I need that muscle to work at my job…. lifting 20-45 lb boxes… and a lot of them… most around 15-25 lbs but when you do that like 50 times and carry them around short distances… well, it adds up
 
Fuck reality
 
Oh, and those ensures are WAY too sweet for me… gah…

Atomic Puppet isn’t getting a second season……
 

@Flutter_Lover  
Aww. I’m sorry to hear that. 😢  
*hugs*

All I ever do is break things.  
Why’s this world so fragile?
 
Everything just crumbles in my hands.

Guys, I’m really scared about this… Not sure if this belongs in this thread, but I’ve been engaged to a girl I don’t even know…
 
I traveled with my mom to my native country in eastern Europe with the intention of meeting this girl my relatives have matched me with. A couple of days ago, I met this girl, and after my relatives chatted with her relatives, I was given a chance to be with her privately for a few minutes. I did most of the talking, saying things very brokenly in my native language that I’m not very fluent in. I decided to give her a fair shake and just before leaving we were told that they would call us to let us know if her parents are okay with us being a thing.
 
…Well apparently, the way a “thing” works in these parts is you get engaged with them right away… No getting to know one another first, no building a romantic affiliation, no boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, nope, just straight to being engaged. Just having any interest in wanting to pursue anything with one another is enough for there to be a wedding soon…
 
I really don’t like the way this is being handled at all with how fast I’m being spearheaded into this, and yet everyone in my family is congratulating me, feeling proud of me and saying that I’m the luckiest guy in the world…which makes me feel very alone with my feelings with this in that I’m reluctant to tell them how I really feel…because how the hell do you tell people like that that you’re not happy?
 
Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against the girl; the fact I don’t know her could also mean that she could very well be a decent girl for me. However, I don’t want kids in my future…like, at all. This is a major problem since every female in my culture are very enthusiastic about children so this is likely to be a dealbreaker for the girl and if the engagement gets called off for that reason, I’m doomed to be made to feel like total shit by my relatives…who are all too happy about me finally getting married since I’m already 35.
 
See, in my culture it’s considered really, really weird to not get married and everyone marries young; my family feels that I’m getting too old and I’ll miss my chance at marriage. I’m not being given the freedom to deviate from my culture. This is just “something I have to do” and I’ve been secretly fighting it for a long time. I certainly would like to have a female companion in my life, but…not like this…
 
I’m meeting this girl again in a couple of days, this time I’ll be staying at a place closer to where she lives so I can get to know her more. Sure, it’d be nice to get to know here more (which is what should have taken place before they decided to shoehorn the engagement arrangements), but I just can’t shake the feeling this is a disaster waiting to happen…
 
I just…don’t know what to do… I’m freaking out… Help…

@MethidMan  
This is just my opinion, but I see two decent options here:
 
You should be honest with her that you don’t want to have children, as this honesty will benefit both of you and her in the end. If this is a turn-off for her, she should know it before you two get together for a long time.
 
or
 
You should not be committed into this relationship in the first place. If you don’t know her, you should not be forced to devote your life to her. I am not sure how you can tactfully do this, but I think that it would be a good idea to “un-engage” and take the relationship slower.

@MethidMan
 
This is indeed a very serious problem. It seems culturally and familially familiar to me. I was in a similar situation, younger than you are now, but in the end I entered into a relationship with a woman just to calm my family. Tragically, the relationship has long since ended, but lasted for many years. She already had a child, a boy whom I like to call my son, because we (the kid and I) have both formed a very deep bond over the years. Even if he’s not of my flesh and blood.
 
However, my family despises this relationship and wishes me to take a wife of their choice, marry and witness an heir. Just to keep the bloodline. Because my gay cousin won’t do this. I understand him and his boyfriend and support them in their views. The pressure is enormous, but I refuse it openly. With all the insults and economic difficulties that this entails. Although I am very happy, because I am financially independent. However, I renounce a very comfortable life in favor of my convictions. And make an enemy out of my own family.
 
All I can tell you is, it’s worth it. If you want to look at yourself in the mirror. I can’t say anything about this girl they’re setting you up with. I would say (just like Starry Mind) to have as open a private conversation as possible. By being clear about your beliefs. Explain your feelings and thoughts why you don’t want children and why you lead life the way you do. I think she’ll understand. You will bear the shame of the family, for you will know that you did the right thing in the end. It gives you more than you think. Even in the darkest hours.

@MethidMan  
Lucky you. In the meantime, my parents advise me not to get into any relationships because I’m too much of a nut and they think I’d be a burden and a mental torture for any girl unlucky enough to like me (Applejack would come after hearing their brutal straightforward honesty). And yours get you a future wife without you doing anything. You’re lucky and you don’t even know that. I know they were a bit rough with that but you’re 35, why wait? You hate kids? Well, I don’t like kids too, but when you’re gonna be old, sick and poor, having a bunch of kids supporting you financially might be a good thing so maybe reconsider your attitude.  
By the way, what’s your culture? You mentioned eastern Europe… Are you a gypsy? I don’t think Slavs would do that kind of engagement on a regular basis.

@MethidMan  
As an advise to you, if you’re gonna throw this chance away, just try to prolong the engagement period as long as possible and be as awful to her as possible so she starts hating you on her own, and she will try to break the engagement - this way her heart won’t be shattered and you’ll be free and most likely lonely for the rest of your life.

@Background Pony #2823  
Was that backhanded comment really necessary?

I was in such a high mood when I said this, and I don’t believe it at all anymore. I don’t want to even deal with a tiny community college, so I really couldn’t handle moving out-of-state to pursue a degree at a large university, and I’m not even very passionate about that college degree anymore. I believe that I was delusional. Why can’t I always be delusional?
 
Here’s a bit of background information on the post: I told my parents that I was ready to move and be in the “outside world”, and I felt very annoyed at my mother for telling me that it was not feasable.
 
It’s day one of college and I’m already very stressed.