kinda a vent
 
 
explanation:
 
i’ve been called a saint, an angel, generous, sweet, kind, etc. and all of it was mostly for doing something for someone else. i’ve been told that people would do anything for me, and that they’d repay me for stuff. ive gotten to the point i just straight up deny it, cause people only wanna do art or something for me in return. when it comes to my own issues like having no money to eat, or wanting to die or anything like that, people just dont care. i’ve been given false sympathy many times, been called an attention whore, been called money hungry, etc. there’s few i know actually do care. (shoutout to Stormlover10 , Its-Just-Joseph , and DeathkillerLT84 . love you guys)
 
honestly it hurts. people always want want want from me, but in return, instead of being able to eat every day, i’m called money hungry. hell, im even at the point where i hardly have anything to eat so much that im sick if i eat more than a small bowl of spaghetti. when it comes to money, mother can only afford the cats supplies, then she has to steal food for us and personal care stuff and all that. we cant even afford proper internet. we go off mothers mobile hotspot or go to her boyfriends place for internet.
 
when i say we’re poor af, im not joking. art is the only way i can get money aside from my grandmother who i hardly see. neither mother nor i are capable of getting a job and it’s just hard to live like this. when we run out of food, we go up to mothers bfs place and im sure it annoys him that two deadbeats come to his house and eat his food.
 
i honestly need money, and my art never sells so its hard.
 
so call me money hungry or an attention whore or whatever. you know the full story now. i honestly dont care at this point what people call me