That’s how I am, yet the cheering up’s died for me. But it’s fine, i’ve given up art and everything else.

Been there.

@Dsiak  
Indeed. Well, and I fix and mod cars as well.

@ACApenetrator50  
That’s a lot of money for a single garden, you must have a green hoof!

@Dsiak  
Yeah that’s true. I’ve geneerated more than 300,000 dollars in just 1 year and bought myself a new 2019 Ford F-350 pickup truck with the money and I’ve felt significantly better ever since then.

@Dsiak
 
I’ve been on pills since 2008, plus I’m up a creek financially if I try to get off them. they ain’t never letting me go.

@ACApenetrator50  
Being a drug dealer beats depression. Being focused on a business and the social interaction is sure to do you some good. Not to say the manual work and the sun bath that comes with tending to the garden.
 
 
@redweasel  
You will, keep working on yourself. My final push was when money got super tight and I didn’t had enough to buy flour to make my daily cheap bread let alone pay for the appointment & pills. By the sun I love bread so very much.

@Dsiak
 
wish I could graduate from pills.

@Dsiak  
I did for a while until they stopped working. So, I started a weed farm in my backyard

@ACApenetrator50  
Boi, pills. Trust me on that one I’m a horse. You can seek a psychiatrist without passing thought a psychologist (AKA psyscammerist).
 
@redweasel  
Tuff love is criminally underrated. This breeds unhealthy relationships with bad emotions which inevitably leads to awful emotional management. Which leads to a brain full of whatever the fuck them hormones are called and next thing we know it’s been 20 years and one is still as emotionally stable as a child.
 
Also I graduated from pills after 2ys I don’t even know how long. Holy fuck I can’t time anything older than a year. Boi do they work.

@mjangelvortex
 
one solution is to find someone willing to rip you a new one, b/c if you can find someone who’s willing to say bad things about you, it feels less like they’re lying when they say good things about you. it’s “the boy who cried wolf” but with positivity. you need someone who’s only positive when the situation calls for it, and then you can rely on them, when you stop being able to see anything as positive at all.

@mjangelvortex  
I know that. Same thing continues to happen to me and I’ve even made multiple attempts to take my own life. Only reason I failed each time is cause someone walked into my room at the time that I was about to pull the trigger

@ACApenetrator50  
Please note how a lot of the comments surrounding her are positive ones. A lot of times with depression and intrusive thoughts, the person themselves can be their own enemy. They can’t control their thoughts but they have horrible thoughts about themselves that slowly chip away at their self-esteem.

Who is responsible for doing this to you? Tell me. I will find them, and I will make them pay dearly for what they have done to you

@Dsiak
 
I might have had some good experiences, but I can’t really talk about them here, because I faved foalcon before, so I’m afraid people’d dox me or try to get me v&
 
I do sympathize with you, though you probably should talk about it in the forums, even if sugar morning’s bubble of self loathing really moved you.

@mjangelvortex  
[blushes in horse]  
Do say thou, any good experiences with them? There has to be some, otherwise there wouldn’t be a market for that.

@Dsiak  
I’m sorry you went through all that.

@mjangelvortex  
I’ve been on 4 therapists before finally learning I could go to a real doctor.
 
The first at young age (maybe 11, 12) the fuckboi gave me some shit for DDA. Didn’t help because I was there for being too sort tempered not for low grades, I’m pretty sure he didn’t even tried.
 
The second was soon after (around same age, can’t remember because time is basically a blurr and I hope it stays that way) the bitch asked questions I didn’t understood and couldn’t answer and played board games. no shit we played a lot of board games. I stopped going out of my own volition after a huge ugly fight and literally nothing happened after.
 
The third I was older (around 19, 20) and I searched him for myself, that dick choker wanted me to open up to (romantic) relationships when I despised everybody, and I’m pretty sure he ignored everything I complained about or he didn’t believe what I was saying and just kept forcing that shit. He refused upfront to give me real pills and instead gave me some shit not much different from a chamomile tea.
 
And the forth was alongside the third (college’s therapist), that ass eater could not get his head around the idea I was void of any good emotions or ambition and kept on trying to make me come up with things I liked and wanted for my life until he gave up and called my father (that was in another city almost 1000km away) without my consent and made me lock college. I’m not sure how they even got his number.
 
And then, my Aunt told me I could go to a psychiatrist strait away without being send by a scammer, and I have been on pills for 3 years now and things are finally starting to work out.
 
If I had it my way this psychology shit would be terminated and every one of them arrested for pretending to be doctors. Nothing but contempt and hatred for it.
 
[deep breath]  
Thanks for reading, that was a very therapeutic ranting… no w8 a sec…

@Creepa-Bot Inc.  
Thank you.

@mjangelvortex  
Words to live by…

@Dsiak  
@ZippySqrl  
It also depends on the therapist. But I’d honestly rather get help from a professional so I can learn how to fix some of my own negative behavior. Talking with friends is good (and as much as I love my family they’re not helping jack squat and my mother’s definately the cause for a good chunk of my own issues), but I think I could use the extra help from a therapist or doctor. Or both.

@Dsiak
 
spoi alert: pills no work, you must fix your digestion

@Dsiak  
While not guaranteed to work, as it depends on the person, therapy is at most just a bit of a little extra mental push, but yes, you could get that from friends and family too, _{providing they’re not the cause in the first place…}

spoil alert: therapy is a scan, pills is the only way

@mjangelvortex  
Of, course, man! I’m going through some stuff right now, but I’m trying to make sure that I’m fine throughout all of it. I just can’t let stuff like this stand.