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“I’ve cast Twilight once as Oliver Thorn from PhilosophyTube before, but before as he playing another character; Pontius Pilate. Olly as I discovered then might be the hardest to recast with something else because so often he’s someone else. But in his last video - linked - he became much more himself, and it was heavy as fuck.
I was incredibly reticent to do this half-way through his video. Prior, it felt as indirect as his others with the skit broken up through the video’s narrative I figured I could get away with it. Then it broke down completely and he turned it around to be a 100% personal and as I broke down I started to doubt if it would even be kosher. Eventually I settled that I wanted to help raise awareness for his mini-documentary and semi-confession. And admittedly, I’ve been feeling the same sort of terror for the past couple of months.
In line with the video, we’re here lonely Cosmonauts. And I’d give a hug if I could over the internet.”
“I’ve cast Twilight once as Oliver Thorn from PhilosophyTube before, but before as he playing another character; Pontius Pilate. Olly as I discovered then might be the hardest to recast with something else because so often he’s someone else. But in his last video - linked - he became much more himself, and it was heavy as fuck.
I was incredibly reticent to do this half-way through his video. Prior, it felt as indirect as his others with the skit broken up through the video’s narrative I figured I could get away with it. Then it broke down completely and he turned it around to be a 100% personal and as I broke down I started to doubt if it would even be kosher. Eventually I settled that I wanted to help raise awareness for his mini-documentary and semi-confession. And admittedly, I’ve been feeling the same sort of terror for the past couple of months.
In line with the video, we’re here lonely Cosmonauts. And I’d give a hug if I could over the internet.”
choosing to die is also a committment. but I’m talking about people who are all like “oh if only I could’ve replaced those pills with flintstones vitamins, they would still be alive today!” not the people actually committing suicide.
Because life is a commitment. Choosing to live is a form of commitment. That should’ve been my first sentence.
what does angsting over what I could’ve done have to do with committment?
There’s a good reason for commitment, though, and all that is is another form of commitment. Commitment brings meaning. When you suffer for something that pays off, then it becomes meaningful - or even just stuck with something long enough without suffering.
And the big reason is that humans are delusional and terrible at telling the future. So even if it looks totally impossible by all reasonable measures, life can always improve, and so there’s wisdom on continuing to live even if you don’t want to.
And plus, there is such thing as moral responsibility. But our culture is almost becoming a bit too narcissistic to see the value of that.
Actions have consequences. That’s not something you can just forget. Especially actions as significant as ones dealing with life and death.
well, I won’t deny there’s something deeply and terribly wrong with me. but that’s basically what I’m trying to say. you did all you could do, or maybe you didn’t do enough, and either way you failed, it sucked, and there’s nothing to worry about anymore. there’s nothing you can do to make things better, so there’s nothing you have to do to make things better.
I guess I’d try to stop someone from killing themselves, but I wouldn’t feel too bad if I failed, because I already failed to stop them from wanting to kill themselves, which is what I really care about. nobody should ever have to feel like they’re forced to live.
If it wouldn’t bother you, then I think there’d be something deeply and terribly wrong with you.
It should be something you have to get through. But it’s not wrong to get through it. I think ultimately it’d be a matter of accepting that all you can do is all you can do, and you did what you could, or what you knew to do.
honestly I don’t wanna go on living. I just can’t find anything better to do. how’s suicide supposed to be better than a shitty life of loneliness and failure? seems to suck either way. either you drift along in space, or you open the airlock and then you drift along in space.
…isn’t birth control heavily medicalized? seems a lot like how society treats suicide, honestly.
oh god, now the guy’s promoting empathy. no wonder he’s trying to kill himself. oh god now he’s singing.
@BarryFromMars
That’s just literal paraphrasing, since “autocannibalistic” literally means “eating yourself”.
That’s the easy way to describe it
@AaronMk
Or it’s saying “Self harm is a way of devouring (eating) yourself.”
Interesting way of interpreting self harm. I feel it would fit anorexia even better, because in that case the body very visibly loses mass from the desires of the spirit.
Self-destruction of the physical self to feed the spirit. In the case of depression and self-harm, it’s hurting one’s self in order to settle the disturbed spirit. It’s all a poetic way to look at things and it fits for Olly, he’s a trained Shakespearean actor.
I don’t understand what the “autocannabalistic nature of self-harm” means?
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@AaronMk
Led me to seeing the video.
Using Situationist logic it’s replacing one idea with another. Less to improve upon it in this case, but to try and broaden the impact of the original idea.
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It broke me up for a couple hours.
Ouch. That feels.
It makes you just want to hold that poor Twilight…