That’s what I actually look like. I take selfies to let people know I haven’t died yet. I’m sorry if you don’t like me or my main coping mechanism (Puzzling Insanity). Please understand that I have a very hard life and she’s what I use to tell others about it.
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I’m sorry you had to go through all that. Public school where I grew up wasn’t much better. I had a decent amount of kind teachers but most people who knew me kind of threw their hands up in the air. I was stubborn, impatient and frustrated easily. I gave up on myself so much they kind of just let me go my own way. As a consequence I never felt close to anyone and ended up with a massive fear of abandonment. As far as the Wal-Mart thing I understand that, too. I worked overnights there for ten years. It had its moments but there were a lot of shitty people there as i’m sure you well know. I know it’s difficult. Just don’t give up on yourself. There are good people out there and you are worth their kindness.
I can do that. My memory’s never been great. However, I can remember a lot about weather and math and science and whatnot.
Conversations in general can be easy or difficult for me. Too many people chatting, and I get overwhelmed. Not allowed to finish what I’m saying or feel ignored, and I feel annoyed and want to go silent. And don’t even start on any job with a high level of socialization. I can have anxiety attacks just thinking about those jobs, and my mom’s husband wanted me to work those kind of jobs to “fix my social awkwardness.” What a moron.
High functioning for the most part. I have significant memory trouble and I often have to stop in the middle of a sentence to remember what I was trying to say.
I have a master’s in meteorology and Asperger’s syndrome. So being “too smart” to have autism is bullshit, especially if you have high-functioning autism or are a savant.
Speaking of stupid reasons people may not think you’re autistic, my mom once told me that she didn’t think I had Asperger’s because I could turn my symptoms off.
The irony is nobody believes that I’m autistic because I’m “too smart to be autistic”. Plus if you looked at my baby pictures and compared them to how I look now, you’d probably think they were two different girls.
That’s horrible. I’ve gone through similar stuff, and America can be unfriendly to the disabled in certain places at certain times.
It’s not that I care what people think; it’s that accusations are thrown at me by complete strangers. People who don’t know me don’t want to know me and they accuse me of awful things in the hope that I finally go over the edge. I was conditioned by my school district to believe that because I’m different I’m a horrible subhuman monster and I’m worthless and annoying, so I apologize and assume I’m being annoying now because I’m still not very good at catching social cues (I’m old enough to drink alcohol in the United States and I can’t tell when someone’s being sarcastic or when someone’s actually pleased to be around me, but now I can read facial expressions and I’ve developed a sense of empathy). Most people treated me like garbage when I was in school (and working at Walmart but that’s a different story), and now I always suspect people of having ulterior motives or being nice to me out of pity.
The depression, the anxiety disorder, the bipolar and the autism are all drug resistant too. I always say that the only thing I’ve ever had that wasn’t drug resistant was a staph infection, and that nearly killed me.
The best way to go about it (at least I’ve found) is to stop giving a shit what people you don’t know think. Honestly-strangers negative opinions are worth shit. They don’t know you. They can go take a flying buck at a rolling donut. Focus on getting to know kind, compassionate people-they’re out there. Do your best to not overwhelm them with apologies or assume you’re being annoying. Most of the time the people who get to know you and show you kindness aren’t doing it for their own gain and aren’t about to turn their backs on you. Some might but in my experience (and I’ve been around awhile) most people are good. You just have to work on giving others the benefit of the doubt and on giving yourself the benefit of the doubt, too.
Depression, low self-esteem, fear of abandonment-it’s all stuff that’s very hard to fight but you can do it and are worth the effort.
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It’s a lose-lose situation for me: if I tell people how I feel I’m labeled as manipulative and looking for pity; if I don’t tell people how I feel I have to hide everything to keep from doing something drastic.
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It’s not guilting or pity bait. It’s someone dealing with a lot of insecurity.
I am a nice person if you get to know me. On God, I would never intentionally guilt or pity bait people. If that’s how I come across, I’m very sorry. I’m not trying to make anyone else feel bad; I’m saying I feel bad for not being the best I could be. I have trouble wording things (autism is a bitch) so I may say something with a completely different intention than you might see. It really sucks. Thank you for the compliment though; I appreciate it.
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You’re welcome.
I’ll definitely take the hug, and thank you.
I love that pone and her dress, BTW. <3
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Thank you.
You’re worth the fight.
I made the last one into a different picture. I’ll try to post it later.
This, this, this, and this, to give some examples.
They’re simple, but they’re good in concept and execution. The worst you’d have to do to them is to redo the lines to make them more smooth, and that’s mostly only on the last one I linked.
I try drawing stuff besides porn. Also, what on my da exactly? Just curious.
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Though honestly we don’t get to see much of that, given that you only post nsfw here. Have you ever given thought to posting sfw content as well, or is nsfw more your jam? There’s some stuff on your DA that shows promise, imo.
Thank you, but it’s not your fault. Hopefully I’ll be able to find something legal that works.