Starless
Prog rock pony
It’s been almost two years since I joined Derpibooru under my original account (Manerg), and looking back, my old art was awful. If you said my old art was some of the worst art ever uploaded to Derpibooru, I would agree. I had most of it removed but you can still find it on some of the alt boorus.
I used to have an OC which looking back, was awful. His name was just my old username, he had no actual cutie mark (I did give him a noose at one point and a pair of drumsticks later on, but these were never shown as he wore a cloak most of the time). Unlike other self-inserts, he was a villain. While this did make my OC stand out, it’s also the worst thing about my character since I had made him way too heinous to the point to where even Chrysalis, Tirek, and The Storm King aren’t as bad. My OC’s story arc I had written (by uploading images of him) was so poorly done. I also couldn’t even come up with the right design as he underwent several changes. Overall, my OC was shit, but then again, aren’t all self-insert OC’s horrible?
I think self-inserts can be good, or at least much better than mine. Ever since I made this new account months ago or even before that, I had been on an off about whether I should start over again with a new OC or bring back my old one, but I never did since I keep going back and forth on whether it’s worth it or not (and I don’t think it is). I think out of the few people on here that do like my art, most of them only cared about my new solo Coloratura art and not anything with my OC in it (I say this because under my old account I had only 2 watchers and as of now I have 8).
Part of me hates canon x OC ships since our waifus obviously aren’t real and never will be, and even if they were, they wouldn’t give a shit. Initially I had drawn these just for fun until I had realized how awful some of these ships are, mostly because some bronies are so attached to their waifus (to the point to where they get upset over other canon x OC ships or whenever someone says anything bad about their waifu), and I had became worried I had turned into one of those perverted self-shippers, which really isn’t good. Perhaps if I had someone in real life I would have never done any of this, but any hope of me ever finding someone is gone and likely never coming back. I don’t think all canon x OC ships are bad (this one: >>2880037 is okay), but a lot of them, particularly the ones involving polygamy (which I almost considered doing recently), fetishes, out-of-character dialogue, canon x real life humans, or poorly drawn or stolen art are.
At first I was shipping myself with Twilight, then Octavia, neither of who I was happy with as I was more interested in Trixie at first (and I had initially avoided shipping myself with her to avoid drama with a certain user, but that doesn’t matter anymore and I have no problem with this now). Then after looking at some art and drawing shit which I never uploaded, I realized I had fallen in love with Coloratura and started shipping myself with her instead.
I kinda want to bring back my OC or make a new one and start uploading images of my OC x Coloratura (or Trixie, but probably the former since I’ve already drawn a lot of Coloratura shipping and POV art) again, but I also don’t think it’s worth doing this and I’ve lost interest in drawing (partially because it takes me so long to draw just one image, usually around 2-3 days whereas when I first started I could be done in less than an hour and upload multiple images each day, but my art did improve a lot so quality > quantity). Would anybody besides my closest friends even care to see yet another cringe self-shipper upload art of his self-insert?
Also, if you do want me to draw again and have any tips on how I could improve my OC (or make a new one), I would appreciate that.