[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Background Pony #A051  
@Tranquil Night  
@CyanLightning  
Whether any of y’all like it or not, the companies and such are doing whatever the hell they want with AI and robots.
 
Did Facebook have to shut down their AI when they made their own language? No…  
But they did. Maybe because it was new and frightening.
 
Point is, it’s happening.  
Technology is becoming the future of countries like America and the U.K. For example.
 
The only countries that might be safe from the dangers of depending on tech are countries like… Egypt I think?  
African countries.  
Maybe Panama?
 
I don’t think they’re making super tech.  
I could be wrong.
 
 
All in all, it’s there. Take advantage of what’s there!  
It’s simple, it’s useful, it’s available.  
So use it! ^^

@Background Pony #A051  
This is an unexpected question, but is your first language Spanish, French, or Italian? You called the computer “her”, and you referred to artificial intelligence as “IA”, not “AI”. If it is one of the three, then your English is very passable except for two minor verbal slips in your last message.
 
I agree that the intelligence of machines will eventually be able to emulate the intelligence of humans better as time advances, but it is not advanced enough to do it perfectly now.

@SirBumpaous  
“the companies and such are doing whatever the hell they want with AI and robots.”
 
Not exactly, you see there are a think still prevent it. Facebook didn’t implement this AI feature on Europe because of the privacy law there, privacy law on Europe are stricter than in US. (one of other reason why I want to live in Europe) thought I am not sure much stricter the law there. But it still prevent Facebook to do it at least now.

@Tranquil Night  
Ha ha you discover me, i need to go back to school because my english suck. I comment rarely and more in english, i prefer always watching most of the time, anonymously… and the google translator is translating badly lately.  
I speak spanish by the way. I forgot that English has flipped some things in comparisom, like order and meaning, my mind spin me around when i try to translate.
 
@CyanLightning  
Don’t you like the idea of an AI inspecting your Facebook account?

@Background Pony #A051  
Aside chatting with someone, I barely active in facebook. Sure I find it a bit you know creepy, but if it’s just for preventing suicide according to Mark it only inspecting the posts not the private chat. I honestly don’t have much of problem a side feeling a bit “creeped out.”
 
 
Oh yeah for chatting I started to move to discord instead of facebook.

For some reason I feel slightly better now

@Applejack007  
Good.

@CyanLightning  
Alright; we have a similar opinion, but i don’t understand in how to use discord.

Am i not good enough?

@LeoNero  
We all are

@LeoNero  
Well, I never had any bad memories about you nor you have been pissed me of, even so an apology and honesty will be enough for me to forgive you. So yeah you’re good.

Sorry, I’ve dealt with rejection, and a lot of Bullshit most of my life. I’ve been talked down to a lot, by friends, teachers, even my own family sometimes. I try to do the best i can. But i find it difficult to push myself without feeling some sort on anxiety or feelings of uncomfort. It’s a struggle for me. It’s been a fucking struggle for me.
 
And due to my learning disability that’s been affecting me through my whole school life, i doubt I’ll even be able to live a successful life. 3 year in college and i’m still directionless. And i doubt my grades are good enough for a university. And i don’t know if someone wants to hire me anyway, some who has ADHD, someone who has a really bad lisp. Nobody wants that.
 
A good relationship just gone, i don’t even want to go into that subject. Makes me sad and angry just thinking about it.
 
A talented artist that i care for and consider one of my inspirations of creativity. Pretty much cutting contact with me. I doubt she even wants to talk to me anymore.
 
Always a nervous wreck every time i wake up like somebody is out to get me.
 
And if i could, i would end it all right goddamn now…….But i’m not. For all the BS in my life, for all the fuckery going on in the real world. I do have a shred of hope that life has meaning afterall.
 
I maybe over reacting, i may sound like a nihilist…Its just..So fucking hard…I’m trying hard not to lose myself. I’ve hurt myself before, i don’t want to do it again. The feelings of a failure linger around me everyday like a snake wrapped around my abdomen trying to bite my neck.
 
Most days i do tell myself i’m a failure and i don’t matter to any one. People may think i’m a laid back and chill guy, but inside, is somebody that still struggles with fear, failure, suicidal thoughts, among other things.

@LeoNero  

 
For me it was the opposite
 
My friends (after i left them) were expecting me to end up commiting suicide, even though i was always chill
 
And this for me was freakin hilarious  
What a bunch of morons they were

@xRei  
Thankyou for the hug!~
 
@SirBumpaous  
I wish I could get an actual hug too.. Internet hugs still make me smile a little
 
@Genevamode
 
Thank you!

Here; let me just extend my worries onto a drawing… now you’all know who I am .. I will get nervous after I post this..
 
https://derpibooru.org/1602315

@Background Pony #28E5  
Holy shit!  
An internet hug on hold for 9 days?!  
This cannot be!  
hugs

@SirBumpaous  
Too afraid to be open… anymore.. after an anxiety attack I had back before August.. I can’t reply as fast anymore or I think I will mess…up.. But I have went to another forum.. then just kind of.. messed it up.
 
~snuggle

@Cloid  
Well, what’s life without downs huh?  
It’s alright. We’re here for ye! ^^  
~snuggles

@SirBumpaous  
Why did that make me blush..? \\  
Thank you!! I can be here.. two.~

@Cloid  
Hugs

Is it okay if I vent here?

@Genevamode  
You’re welcome to.

@LeoNero  
Happy face!

@LeoNero  
Okay, here I go:
 
 
Often I think about my life and realize that I am the most failed and worthless person on the planet. Almost everything short of a paraplegia or severe mental disability has gone wrong for me.  
>Autism  
>Never disciplined or socialized properly because my disability made it impossible to get through to me  
>No idea how to function IRL  
>Too permanently exhausted to make an attempt; I physically am not able to do it  
>I’m a 1/3 through my life already at 24, never had a job  
>Don’t care about sex or dating, sometimes nothing helps me feel good at all  
>Wouldn’t dare try to ask a girl out for fear of being falsely accused of rape or sexual harrassment  
>Haven’t felt genuine enjoyment or happiness in years  
>Can’t concentrate or retain information  
>Scoliosis, double curve that is clearly visible  
>Not attractive, charismatic, strong, co-ordinated, intelligent or competent. Cursed with poor genetics  
>Helpless computer addict for life, become extremely restless when internet goes out  
>Everyone around me has their shit together  
>Previous suicide attempts leading to a mental health record  
>School failed  
>College failed  
>Internet and library are the only access to the world I have  
>Fully dependent on single mother, whose health is getting worse  
>Mother and sister fight frequently if not constantly  
>Everyone low-key thinks I’m an embarrassment to everybody. It’s obvious they’re just being polite.  
>No virtues or positive traits  
>Chronic tiredness, suicidal thoughts not responsive to treatment  
>Permanent ward of the state due to disability, when my mother is no longer able to function I don’t know what I’m going to do. I will probably be homeless  
>Most pointless life ever  
>Can’t look people in the eye because of how utterly inferior I am  
>Envy absolutely everyone for having it better.  
>Grandfather died a few years ago  
>Then went one of our cats followed by one of our dogs  
>All three of them died horribly, grandfather got Parkinsons, cat died in shock bleeding from the mouth and the dog just started seizing up and wouldn’t respond looking extremely distressed.  
>Scared to leave the house.  
>Jump out my skin when there’s a knock on the door, worrying about who might be on the other side  
>Always sat near the edges of a room where I can see what everyone else is doing because I fear being attacked for no reason  
>Find it impossible to trust or believe in anyone or anything they say. Everything looks and feels like pointless bullshit.  
>Reminded of the fact that - because everything is predetermined - God has cursed me for absolutely no reason and any attempts to change this will end in failure and further disappointment  
>Too scared of the future to enjoy living in the first world and having an easy life
 
Sorry if this is too much or too controversial. I don’t want to upset anyone. Please don’t be angry.

@Genevamode  
Well, you just stated everything you don’t like about yourself.  
So instead of looking at it and thinking negatively.  
Try to change what you can.
 
Work to it!  
You’re good at something! What are you good at?
 
@Cloid  
I dunno.  
But I’m glad to make ya feel better!  
what have you been up to lately?