[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Background Pony #B429  
How so?

@Applejack007  
Good luck on your appointment.

None of the people I’ve contacted on this site share my interests.

Im feeling miserable

I drank too much coffee yesterday and now my stomach doesn’t feel good and I feel weak and dizzy and just weird
 
And I drank the coffee… Over 15 hours ago
 
 
I had a very small amount a bit ago and that just made things slightly worse… It was only about a 20th the caffeine I had yesterday
 
 
And I’m working… Taking a short break right now… I want to keep working my 3 hours left I have in my shift (it was just 4 hours) but it’s been not even an hour and… Sigh
 
 
I drank some water not too long ago and I got to get back to work really soon

@Conflik9929  
Same. Yet i’m not really happy of this month.

Well, I’m finally here.

So… In RP, the best thing I like about is mainly to romance, the cuddles… And I’m quickly running low on finding that.
 
I like it when I can have a RP where I can date and OC and all that shit and marriage and yadda yadda yadda, you get my gist here.
 
But I’m trying to actually find someone who is willing to do that, too. Right now, I’m either waiting on somebody and begging for them to stay fucking active or hoping somebody doesn’t just plain stop and say they’re done. So… I don’t know what to say. I kinda use RP in this case to cope with romantic loneliness now. But I still love it for the fun of it… Just, damn…

Nothing came out of that, of course. What the fuck is the point in being optimistic.

Finally recovering from my 700mg of caffeine yesterday
 
My body isn’t really used to caffeine and having that much in a 4 hour period, especially since 3/4 of it was consumed in 2 hours… Was way too much
 
I was actually slightly worried because I did cardio beforehand and.. yeah… My heart was already tired and then it was beating significantly faster than normal… Well…. Like 110 at resting
 

 
Meh… Anyway… Finally feeling better… Took almost 24 hours

Fucking hell. Do I even have the energy to be upset? It’s like when things can go wrong they do.

@Applejack007  
Here as in here on the thread?

@warc9  
Psychiatrist. Though I DID get to see him..prescribed something for OCD and anxiety.

@Applejack007  
Thats actually really good.

It’s gotten harder to stay positive this time of year.

I’ve gotten my meds and haven’t taken one. Not my fault. My mom is holding them hostage, and today I had another “episode”.

@Applejack007  
I’m so sorry

@warc9  
On top of that, it took hours to even get the chance to see the pyschiatrist, and I got like..10 minutes or so with him. I tried to explain as much as I could but I missed some things and couldn’t go as in depth as I wanted to..

@Applejack007
 
You should try seeing a clinical psychologist. Their approach is more versatile and patient focused.

@Applejack007  
Sorry man.
 
hugs

@Applejack007  
Hugs

@Applejack007
 
@Applejack007  
I’m sorry to hear that :(
 
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@warc9
 
@Holofan4life
 
@ice1517  
Hugs Thanks
 

 
@Zincy  
I doubt I’ll be going to that guy again anyway..

@Applejack007  
No problem.

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