On February 13, 2013…
 
…this was the night my mom threw my dad out of the house.
 
For those of you who had known me since 2008 may be pretty much aware of what I’m talking about, for those who had just recently met me, here’s the first picture I painted to describe I had endured: cartuneslover16.deviantart.com
 
You know what really sucked about him? On my mom’s birthday, January 28, the night we all went out together for dinner, it felt like old times; and mom and dad still keep in touch and do hang out a bit. And right when mom feels she’s ready to allow him to come back home since it was almost a year that particular day and dad had been asking and waiting for it to happen…he says he’s enjoying his own place. His own life.
 
Dear God, and he had the nerve to say all that on my mom’s birthday…
 
You have no idea how ultimately pissed off I was with him; even though he doesn’t “mean to”, he’s hurting us, especially mom. I still remember months ago when he asked when would be a good time to come home so he can start anew…cartuneslover16.deviantart.com
 
Now he feels he’s not ready to come home yet, enjoying his little apartment and all that stuff. He does want to still spend time with us, especially mom, until he officially decides to come home…
 
You know what?
 
:bulletwhite: I’m not ready to have him back home either.
 
History is repeating itself, and while he and mom are getting along and still hanging out from time to time…I think I’ll remain calling him my “former hero”.
 
:bulletgreen: That night of mom’s birthday, I just cried while mom went to bed, miserable. Who did I hug close to my heart?
 
My Don Carlton doll. Monsters University has forever remained the glue that has kept me together, and hugging my Don doll, this was one of those nights I wished HE was my dad; I mean, he becomes Squishy’s at the end of the MU film!
 
The way I see it, Don Carlton is TEN TIMES the father had ever been. And as bitter as that is…Hell no am I taking it back.
 
Deep down, although I still love him, daddy’s girl wants him to F*** OFF…big time. :wtf:
 
Though I’m still nursing a little hurt…the cold never bothered me, anyway; I can actually see beyond those lyrics Elsa sang in “Frozen”.
 
Anyway recall how I’ve made recent journals about my love of shopping and spending great amounts of money? Well, during this week, I’ve shopped EVERY day. I’ve always been a materialistic girl…but not this serious. I guess because this was the final week of dad living in the house, buying things is the only comfort besides eating greasy food…:(
 
I swear, I’ll quit shopping so dang much after February 15. Because tomorrow is Valentine’s Day…and I remember last year when my best gay friend Austin had comforted me the day after the incident that he took me to Downtown Disney to cheer me up; tomorrow, we are going to watch the Lego movie, then it’ll be a sleepover.
 
On the 15th we’re going to Disneyland, my ultimate home away from home. This will be the best V-Day weekend ever.
 
If anyone, brony, pegasister, or just a mere fan of MLP FIM, I’m sure you recall my first impression of Princess Cadence when she was introduced in Season 2: I thought she was a total Mary-Sue and just some way for Hasbro to make more money. I was right.
 
However, as time went on and Season 4 is already airing, I realize that she’s not a Mary-Sue…she’s as relevant to us as reality itself. And sometimes I wish I was her, because I want happiness just like hers…
 
Even though we are two VERY different people, I’m sure we’ve shared the same situations in our growing lives.
 
Thank you everyone for the good words of sympathy and support. :hug:
 
So it’s now been officially one year…
 
I’ll still wait for my dad when the time is specially right…then we’ll see if I’ll call him my “hero” again.
 

 

 
Princess Cadence from My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (c) Hasbro  
Don Carlton from Monsters University (c) Pixar