So, I’ve been watching this absolutely fantastic anime called Ore no Kanojo to Osananajimi ga Shuraba Sugiru. For a harem anime, it has extremely strong and engaging characters and I find myself very actively rooting for the success of the ones I like most. I get kind of animated when something embarrassing or silly or funny happens and there’s times where I find myself audibly laughing despite it being in the early hours of the morning and I’m in a room by myself. I’m really enjoying everything and it feels great.
But there’s just that part of me that anticipates disappointment in everything - it’s a huge downer to my mood when I’m having so much fun watching how the story unfolds and feeling such strong desires to see Chiwa or A-chan be the one to win over the MC, but then I just have the sinking feeling that the one who will win will be Natsukawa, who I don’t really like and is a pretty dull character in her own right. I know one of the four girls actually win in the end, unlike most harem animes, but I didn’t have it spoiled which one. So I just find myself completely anticipating the outcome I don’t want and it just brings my enjoyment down pretty significantly. It goes as far as to where I’m thinking “How should I act about this when I post about how I feel about the ending in the anime thread?” and I start thinking of over-exaggerated ways to express myself for an attempt at a joke of sorts, like acting super angry or acting super bummed out, while I should be watching the show.
I miss having fun.
just fuck my life
it was worse than I could have ever imagined
Am I wrong for actually feeling sad about this? Am I weird for that?