Vent thread

When I wrote that post, I was an ugly mess for crying so much. My emotions could not hold whenever I see her suffering everyday. I visibly see it on her face. As if she wanted this pain to be over but I know… I have faith, and I believe on this faith, …that she will get through this mess.

This is those only time that I wanted to get closer to God and ask for her good health.

I’m desperate. Still doing what I can.

(Towards someone I know)

“I’m as sad as you are! But that doesn’t mean you have to be rude to me about it! It’s not my fault this happened, you don’t need to act like it was my fault because it wasn’t!”

Why did it have to happen now? I get everyone has to die eventually but… why now? She was a big part of my life!

No wait……. I did a further research on her new condition now, it’s called “Haw’s Syndrome”. It’s a protrusion of the third eyelids.

I don’t know if this is could lead to my cat going permanently blind but according to what I read, it’s cause is not known but the condition is frequently associated with gastrointestinal inflammatory disorder. The elevation of the third eyelid may be due to a change in the way nerves are supplied to the third eyelid. A cat’s vision is normal with this condition, but may be functionally decreased simply because the elevated third eyelids are blocking the cat’s vision. Affected cats may have watery diarrhea that began before the onset of elevation.

I hate the new layout for wikipedia, it’s fucking shit

@SlickBlade
Looks ok to me

I said i liked this tea called Tension Tamer.

This has devolved into a day where my mom is prying at me every couple hours on what I have to be stressed about in a very incredulous manner, and me having to tell her it’s none of her business, because I’m sick of this cycle where i share something with her, and she tells me very nicely that every emotion or thought I have have is bullshit, unless it was originally hers.

There’s a private reserve of anger I choose not to share with anyone.

Particularly when someone shows up at the house and calls my mother stupid.

Amazon said Sunday. It’s Sunday where’s my damn stuff Amazon you fucjs

I fucked up.

@Professor Venturer
What happened?

@icicle wicicle 1517
Nevermind, false alarm. But here’s what happened.

Here’s a more uplifting update about my cat: her WBC and platelets have significantly improved because of my precisely timed scalp vein solution session, and supplement intake every 12 hours. Once every two hours of force-fed water mixed with powdered dextrose as well.

I am still not complacent yet since she is still not eating nor drinking on her own.

I finally know why because of the tremendous amount of toxic chemicals inside her body called Urea that made her lose her sense of smell, and taste. Hence losing appetite as well. All that was caused by her failing kidneys.

The white thing between her eyes is actually her eyelids which had covered up 1/3rd of her eyesight and it is completely harmless. It’s caused by her gastrointestinal problems and weakened immune system.

…Still completely heartwrenching seeing her like this.

I really wish my comments and replies stop getting the “my experience is different so you’re absolutely wrong. Shut up.” treatment.

Well… big ass oof…

Just learned about those high urea levels and it is caused by foods high in protein, sodium, and phosphorous.

Without her functioning kidneys anymore, there is no more organs left to filter all those toxic elements so she will have to resort to a new type of diet perpetuated for her renal health. Anything low of those 3 elements found in a food. We were feeding her those foods that she usually eats before she got this sickness all this time, jeez.

She will also gonna take yet another new medicine that will be prescribed to us tomorrow.

I hate strep throat so much…

@Dex Stewart
Well shit, I had that play rug when I was a kid, it was super fun.

@Just Wayne
That’s a very pretentious thing for them to say since we all have different experiences towards things which doesn’t inherently make it good or bad.

Woke up late once again…sure hope I’m not falling into a deep depression again.

@Just Wayne
lmao, I would call those replies as “lazy-ass unempathetic replies” as well.

If anyone watches YouTube… this is gonna be a hard one for y’all.

The Schaffrillas team had a car accident. James is in critical condition while his friend Chris and his brother Patrick passed away due to the car crash.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
Oh god, that’s terrible.

@Lord WyrmSpawN
Yes.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
Damn that’s horrible.

My condolences to the family and friends of Chris and Patrick and i hope James has a swift recovery

Tomorrow is my first day in college.
I swear I’m either going to kill myself or kill somebody.

It’s not a threat for violence, I’m not that kind of guy, but I feel I’m gonna be bullied starting by tomorrow, and I’m not sure what I’ll react like…